Here we go again.

Ok, so it has been a long time. Things have been really crazy with three kids, house, hubby and all. I am back and going to try this weight loss thing again.

A couple of my friends have been asking me when I was going to start the process again. I have been putting it off with excuses.

This morning I took the phentermine and am going to schedule an appointment with my GP.

How am I feeling?

Shaky, thirsty - thanks phentermine.
Nervous. The last time, the insurance company said that they needed 6 months of doctor led diet. At that time, we had 4 months of information. So, with this information, we were going to petition the insurance company to consider me again. But, I got pregnant and every thing had to stop.
Now, we have to start over. In my mind, this only gives the insurance company another chance to say no. If they do say no, then what?
This process is very "selfish". You have to look at what you eat, when you eat, how you eat. The phentermine makes your brain think you aren't hungry, so remembering to eat is difficult.

When I was doing this before, Ethan and Emma were big enough to tell me they were hungry, or get something for themselves. Now, Ethan and Emma can still fend for themselves, but what about Eliza. She communicates very well (piont, grunt, talk, yell, scream), but she should not have to "worry" about being fed. I will have to make a conscious effort to meet her needs.

I am determined to see this thru. I know the surgery will benifit me and my health. I believe that it will benifit my family too. I so look forward to doing things with me kids that I can't do now. Sledding, running, hiking, biking etc.

Now I start with baby steps. Watching my carbs, taking my meds, drinking water, moving my buns. I am excited to see where it will take me.

Beginning stats:
Before I got pregnant I weighted 278.
During my pregnancy I topped out at 310.
The day after Eliza was born I weighted 268.
Now I weigh in at 300.
What will it be next month?